Well today is monday and I went to work and then came home. I went to Bible study at Ryan's which btw is my favorite thing ever!
Well yesterday at church, Pastor Neil, who is Pastor John's son, spoke and he spoke on the 5 things( I dont remember the whole message) that will I think help you grow in your walk...none of that is relevant to my blog, but anyways. He was talking about the 5 ways and he focused on the 5th way which is meditating. I didnt understand what he meant by meditate at 1st but after he explained it, it finally hit me! All of this time I've been going to church( like the past 6 months) I've been really hard on myself about not knowing where the books of the bible are and stuff like that. Like how "everyone" else knows more than I do...well i learned on Sunday that it doesnt matter how much "I know" if I dont put the little bit I do know to work than I'm no good. I always felt like "Oh I have to know where every book of the bible is or who wrote every book, and all of this other stuff" well I dont. I'm not saying that's not important, cause it is. But i can know all of that, but if I never put what I know to work, what's the use in knowing it?
Lately, I've been realizing that I'm not fitting into a "group", now dont get me wrong I LOVE my friends, but I jsut feel like there is something off, and I can't figure out what it is. Well, Pastor Neil couldn't have said it any better..."If you're getting along with the world perfectly fine, you're having no trouble with anything, then you need to step back and look at your walk. Because you should never be comfortable with the world"(not an exact quote) It was like a HUGE light bulb went off in my head when he said that. I couldnt believe it, I had been searching for this answer everywhere. I was thinking "what am I doing to make my friends angry at me, what am I doing wrong?" well I'm not saying Im perfect at all, but the reason I'm not "fitting in" is because I am different and it's good that I'm feeling uncomfortable. If I were fitting into the worlds perception then "my light" isnt turned on. As a Christian, were supposed to shine for the world to see.We're supposed to be different. I am soooooo tired of conforming to this world. Nothing in it matters in the long run. I need to take sometime and focus on my relationship with the ONLY thing that really matters, MY GOD! I don't want to be "part" of this world I want to be an inhabitant. I want to think of this as my desk at work. I want to live my life as a job for God. I want to think that when I wake up everyday, I have a job to do that day. I have to make my "product" look good, I have to be like that "blue light special" for God. I have to show others how Amazing "my product is." I dont want to blend in everyday, I want to be that person that someone looks at their friends and is like " Hey, that girl, there's something different about her." I want people to notice me for what I stand for, not what I look like or what I have. I want people to notice me, because of what i stand for and how I carry myself at all times.
Tonight at bible study we were singing and when we got done, John held up this like decorative ball ryan's mom had. he was like " I want to be like this ball, no matter where I look into it, it reflects me." He said, "I want to be that reflection for God, that know matter how you look at me or how close you get or how far away, that I'm always reflecting God."
I know this one was long but it what's on my heart.
here are a few bible versus I came across tonight...read if you would like
You are my hiding place; you shall perserve , me from trouble; you shall surround me with songs of deliverance. Psalm 32: 7
Many sorrows shall be to the wicked; but he who trusts in the Lord, mercy shall surround him.
Psalm 32:10
Rejoice in the Lord, O you righteous! For praise from the upright is beautiful. Psalm 33:1
Keep your tongue from evil, and your lips form speaking deceit. Depart from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it. Psalm 34:13-14
And as always, MY GOD is soooo GOOD!
1 comment:
Hey Allie I can totally relate to what you are saying! About the meditation thing: My pastor preached a sermon similar to that titled "The Battle is on Retreat!" after coming back from a mission trip. He talked about how we all have our day to day battles, but as Christians we must remember that Jesus defeated death on the cross for us and in the end the victory is ours. Then he went on to explain that in order to live a live in peace and hope with Jesus, we have to become closer with him. He reminded us that when Jesus was on earth, he often took retreats, to separate himself from the world and grow closer to God. In the same way, we have to take time to meditate, get to know God, listen and grow closer in our relationship with him. He challenged us with this, "Do you just spend time with God when you have the time? When it's convenient? Retreats are the way of life, the way of renewal." They help us to gain the tools we need to fill God's tasks for us. Meditation is basically like taking a retreat with out going anywhere so I think they were both about the same thing. That sermon really touched me too because I am always so busy and sometimes I get in the habit of thinking, well I went to church, or I said a prayer today so Im good. But thats not good enough. Its important to just take time to talk to and listen with God too.
I also like what you said about being comfortable. You shouldn't always be comfortable, because than you stop reaching higher and higher. Its hard sometimes, but Im also realizing that I dont need to and shouldn't want to fit into the world, but instead I should strive to fit into what God wants me to be.
I didn't know you had a blog before but now that I do, I love it! I admire you for sharing your faith and thoughts with others.
-Libby
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