Overwhelming...

My life is, to say the least,overwhelming right now. Moving in with my grandparents, my car getting totaled, and just about anything else you could think of is probably happening to me. I promise this isnt going to be a huge long story whining about my problems. Yes, i have things going on in life that I wish I could change, but I've come to the realization that I can't. I can't change them, because this is the path that my AMAZING God is leading me down. God has a plan for my life and is slowly, even though I'm having a hard time understanding, revealing it to me. I need to take what He gives me and use it to make my testimony stronger and grow more and more in love with Him. I need not focus on this world, yet focus on what I can do in my life to glorify Him. He has given me air to breathe, an able body,and people who love me. And yet, I still ask for more. I haven't been in my Bible like I should be lately and honestly, I feel like when I am in it that things are a little easier to get through. The inportant thing to get out of that line I just wrote is that I didnt say that things were easier, I said that when I am in God's word, things are easier to get through. it's like the footprints poem.


One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."
-Mary Stevenson

Whenever I'm going through tough things I think of this poem and how true it is. When I think I'm alone and have no one else, My God is right there carrying me! When I think about that it blows my mind. Why would He, the God of the heavens and the earth, choose me the lowliest of sinners? But He does choose me, He chooses to carry me when I need Him even if I haven't been the best I can be. I just felt the need to share, what God is showing me in my life right now so maybe I could courage someone else.